Support from ones family is probably the one thing that keeps a lot of people going. Over the past 4 – 6 months I have come to realize that my family as spread out all over the country as we are does not have the ability to understand or support me. I have tried to wrap my head around the meaning of this – and have given each of them - in different ways - breaks on their lack of interest in my world – but it stops here. I am making the stance – I can not longer listen to them tell me I am not being responsible with my life. A few years back I had a boss that stopped talking to his family because of their lack of support for his work with puppets. When he would tell me his stories of how he reached the point of not communicating with them – I would judge him and think how sad it was…and thought how lucky I was to be blessed with family that was not like that. I am - I am just in rough patch that I will work my through like I have in the past…but this time I will truly do it on my own. So, here I go.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
my fucking family
Sunday, September 10, 2006
not an angel
Today is the day that I thought would never come.
Breathing, thinking, trying on knowing
I do not want to lose what I thought was just effortless:
I dove into the simple.
My bad luck?
I was not an angel?
I will glisten with the sweat of guilt I fear…for how long I do not know.
I can not keep on like this.
My bad timing?
This will be okay by me – but when?
Coffee is not strong enough today.
Breathing, thinking, trying on knowing
I do not want to lose what I thought was just effortless:
I dove into the simple.
My bad luck?
I was not an angel?
I will glisten with the sweat of guilt I fear…for how long I do not know.
I can not keep on like this.
My bad timing?
This will be okay by me – but when?
Coffee is not strong enough today.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
things right now
So, we have entered Fall. Well, I guess that is not till September 22nd or is it the 23rd? None the less it is Fall as jeans and zip up hoodies are all I am wearing.
Things on the house front have gone through a shift. Joe moved out – headed for Boston and grad school. I moved out of my room and into his. I now I have my own bathroom - which I must say I rather enjoy. So, my old room lay empty for a bit. There was a threat of a cheerleader who works at the ESPNzone moving in. That got squashed – thank god. Sean (my other housemate) brought up the thought that fringe should use it as an office. The more it got tossed around that more it really made sense. So, Damian and I will be setting up shop here in Columbia Heights. Well, this is our official business address anyway – so it does make sense.
I have gotten a part time job for the time being to help with my cash flow issue and hopefully save up some $$ money for a trip in November. I will be working as an artist assistant to a print maker at the Torpedo Factory. Basically, it is three days a week – one has to be a weekend. One of the days I can work on my own projects if I choose too (think I might). The other days I have to cut mattes and frame this guy’s artwork, and print etching plates. I think I will really enjoy it and enjoy going to the Torpedo Factory a few days a week. I go there for the first time on this Friday to check it all out.
I have gotten the first drafts of the applications done for the Festival next year. They will go out at the beginning of October…and then we will just wait and see what comes in for the 2nd installment. I am excited about the possibilities for Visual Fringe and adding music to next years Festival.
I am sad to see summer go. All in all it was a good one this time around. I met some great folks this summer. I am unsure of what Fall will hold….so, here’s to all good things.
Things on the house front have gone through a shift. Joe moved out – headed for Boston and grad school. I moved out of my room and into his. I now I have my own bathroom - which I must say I rather enjoy. So, my old room lay empty for a bit. There was a threat of a cheerleader who works at the ESPNzone moving in. That got squashed – thank god. Sean (my other housemate) brought up the thought that fringe should use it as an office. The more it got tossed around that more it really made sense. So, Damian and I will be setting up shop here in Columbia Heights. Well, this is our official business address anyway – so it does make sense.
I have gotten a part time job for the time being to help with my cash flow issue and hopefully save up some $$ money for a trip in November. I will be working as an artist assistant to a print maker at the Torpedo Factory. Basically, it is three days a week – one has to be a weekend. One of the days I can work on my own projects if I choose too (think I might). The other days I have to cut mattes and frame this guy’s artwork, and print etching plates. I think I will really enjoy it and enjoy going to the Torpedo Factory a few days a week. I go there for the first time on this Friday to check it all out.
I have gotten the first drafts of the applications done for the Festival next year. They will go out at the beginning of October…and then we will just wait and see what comes in for the 2nd installment. I am excited about the possibilities for Visual Fringe and adding music to next years Festival.
I am sad to see summer go. All in all it was a good one this time around. I met some great folks this summer. I am unsure of what Fall will hold….so, here’s to all good things.
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