home?

I spoke with my dad about three or five weeks ago and he let me know that he will be selling our home in Montana. This was not a huge surprise as he has been talking about retiring and moving to Silver City, New Mexico….I had been planning to go home in late August and part of September. It seems now that house has sold and my dad will be moving out as of June 1.

I have been really unsure what to think about this or do…and emotionally have been all over the place. I have never really moved out of my childhood home. My room was just as I left it till I was 28 – that was only 3 years ago.

I decided about a week ago that I must go home…I would regret it if I did not....but when things could not be busier and I could not be pulled in any more directions. I sat on this decision for a bit – only telling a few. I told my dad I would be coming home earlier this week to pack up my things and place in a storage shed in Dillon….and now I have purchased my ticket.

So, I will head to Dillon May 16 – 20 to pack up things…so many things filled with so many memories….I have been trying to not reflect on the past to much…but I am having trouble and have been cranky at time as of late.

I am not sure what all of this will feel like when I am there and it is real. I have been dreaming about going home in aug/sept for so long…I am not sure what to do with those thoughts now.